Life Musings

The woman that I love has lupus, an autoimmune disease. Her body is slowly attacking its own tissues. I don't know if this is because she's generating the wrong types of antibodies, or if it's because she has the wrong cytotoxic T cells, or whatnot. All I know is that she's suffering from this malady.

It's just one of many disabilities which she has. Poor gal.

And yet, this gal spurned me. We were best friends, and we had been talking about marriage. She even said that we were a good match. Yet even though virtually noone else was willing to accept her physical limitations, she still turned me away. I guess I just wasn't good enough for her.

Now I'm not sure which one of us is hurting more.

Welcome. This will be a place for me to jot down various anecdotes, outrageous stories, tales of frustration and more. There will also be a bit of angst in these stories, since I've led a rather painful and troubled life. In particular, the past year of my life has been a whirlwind of torment and emotional pain.

In fact, I thought about calling this weblog "Angst," but decided against it. I wanted something that wasn't quite so negative -- so "Life Musings" is the name.